Finding time to post is still hard

Part of my anxiety is paranoia. It's not the delusional kind most of the time. I am still worried about Flystrike and ticks. Mostly because they freak me out. I'm really good at telling myself that I'm an idiot with those. 

But then there's the worry that people I no longer want in my life are reading and talking. That's not baseless. It has happened both online and off. Right now, I'm in the mindset that it doesn't matter. I'm not asking anyone for anything, I'm not talking down about crap and I'm not searching them out. If they have nothing else left in life to do other than to hunt me down online? Who cares if they find it funny. It honestly says much more about them than me.